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bad girl
i skipped some classes today....i know it was stupid....oh well i just can't skip again this semester....really there wasn't shit i was gonna learn in theory, and in sociology she only does roll 4 times a year and she just did it on friday....so.....oh well....i gotta catch up with my psych notes.....

everything else is going pretty good....:)....i gotta get my bf to take a picture of my ass....

Current Mood: high

sprinkles
i stole sprinkles from work....mwahahahahahahaha......one more day till the 40 show.....i just have 3 classes tomorrow then i'm free till then.....i can't waaaait......

Current Mood: bouncy
Current Music: adult swim promo.....jazz

oh yeah I FUCKIN LOVE YOU....u know who you are

Current Mood: horny ;)

feelin fine
ah i feel great.....haven't felt this good in a long time.....love is grand.....the 40 show is four days away......i got good weed.....everythang's goin good.....

Current Mood: content

back finally
ok i got internet at my apartment now, so the updates will continue....if i feel like it....

ps: I'M REALLY EXCITED FOR THE 40 SHOW!!!!!!

Current Mood: excited
Current Music: 40 Below Summer

feeling shitty....but why
well tomorrow i'm going to the doctor to get some anti-depressants prescribed. i hope they work and they don't make me feel all weird and shit. i'm actually feeling a lot better today, but i've still been bummed out. mornings are the worst, for some reason i feel awful when i wake up.

oh yeah i just had a birthday party with my mom's family. i got some cash, some gift certificates, and a big pot. nothing too exciting.

i'm all moved out of the old apartment, and i'm staying with my mom till friday when i can get into my new place. i'm worried and excited. excited to get all this shit over with and finally have my own place, but worried because i don't really remember what the place is like, i think it might be way too small, plus it's gonna be lonely as hell for the first few weeks till i get used to it.

now it's bath time....

feeling better
ok that last entry looks really dramatic.....i felt horrible when i wrote it but i feel better now.....it was just a chemical thing i guess....

Current Mood: fine

i feel about as bad as i've ever felt....for no real reason.....yesterday i felt like crying but couldn't....i'm crying now.....i can't shake this feeling....it feels like shit.....for days now, even weeks.......but yesterday was the worst, and today is pretty bad......i wanna cry some more but it hurts too much......god i feel horrible.....everything scares me....this feeling scares me.....i'm so insecure....everything in my life seems like shit.....i feel so alone....

Current Mood: horrible

random update
let's see...what's going on....well my mom moved out so i have the apartment to myself....but i got bitched out for smoking in here....probably shouldn't have smoked all those cigars lol.....anyways, i have no food.....it sucks....i'm so poor.....oh well

work is getting annoying....

my finger hurts...

my boyfriend rocks :)

i'm going to dog fashion disco on sunday!!! FUCK YEAH!!!!

well that's all the update for now....peace

Current Mood: awake

damnit
right now it feels like my whole life is one big pile of crap....

Current Mood: extremely disappointed

called in sick
i'm just so pissed at work i decided not to go today....plus if i wanna go to the stoughton fair and have any kind of a good time it has to be tonight....but anyways when i called in i talked to jason (thank god jaimie wasn't there) and as soon as i got done saying "i don't think i'm gonna be able to come in to work today, i'm sick..." he said "hmm sounds suspicious"
but jason's a pretty cool guy, he checked the schedule and let me be sick.....

so i got 2 days off in a row....time to be lazay........and look for a better fucking job...

Current Mood: drained

You are a gynocologist inspecting uranus! Your mind
lies on the sexual side of things, but your way
of going about things doesn't really compute
with normal human beings. I mean, first of all
you don't do anus. Second of all, you have your
gyno van parked out in deep space. Do you sense
a problem with comprehension here?

dez made me do it....lol

hmm
i'm lonely and tired....i gotta work till close tomorrow and the next day....i'm tired of working.....but then i got saturday off, but i gotta help my mom move or pack or something...then saturday night i think i'm going to the fair.....but i can't stay out late cuz i got a fuckin double shift on sunday and if i don't get enough sleep its gonna kill me

i don't know how i'm gonna survive once i get a second job....argh i really wish kent lived in madison things would be sooooo much easier....oh well......

Current Mood: gloomy
Current Music: dog fashion disco

owie
this morning i woke up to rain...i had to ride my bike 3.5 miles to work because mom's out of town with the car...i got soaked....when i got there i tried to ride it between a column and a bench and i fuckin wiped out and slammed my hand/wrist, and now the fingers on that hand hurt and i got some nasty bruises on my leg and my shoulder hurts....blah.....but a nice mexican named javier gave me a ride home. i think he was trying to hit on me at work, he was like "call me" and did the phone thing with his fingers....

in an hour i'm going to see 28 days later with kent, and we're gonna take some triple-c beforehand....it's gonna be hella fun...i love getting fucked up with him, we don't clash at all....

well my back is killing me, i have to go lay on the couch.....

Current Mood: tired

just felt like writing
hmmm let's see.....i signed my lease today, so the apartment's mine as of august 1st....so i have to move that day, and the next day is ozzfest, and the day after that is my birthday!! that's gonna be an exciting couple of days...and my mom told me today that her and grace are moving like july 10 or something, so from then till i move i get this place to myself. which will be wierd as hell, since there won't really be any furniture in here

ok i'm tired of writin now

Current Mood: blank

damnit
i had another "attack" when i went to bed....i'm sick of this shit...i feel so alone sometimes.....i need a fuckin hug

Current Mood: scared

blah blah blah
i have to work all day tomorrow, and i'm not looking forward to it....

it feels like sunday night, with that nasty nothing to do feeling.....i hate this feeling....oh well....

i had a great time last night, getting fucked up with my man and our friends, but it makes this empty night seem that much worse....plus i was trying to get some nookie but it wasn't exactly happening....don't you hate that unfinished business feeling

i got a call from a realtor today and i think i got this apartment i applied for...it's a one bedroom which is fabulous, but it's so ghetto.....i'm excited and scared at the same time....it's gonna be rough at first, getting used to it....but all the weed and sex i'll be getting in there should make up for it ;)

Current Mood: lonely

not lonely anymore
i found a good one this time :)

Current Mood: content
Current Music: silence

a day off
so i got today and tomorrow off, and i can catch up on all the shit i've been meaning to do for a few days....i'm watching martha stewart.....

ok that's all for now

Current Mood: loved
Current Music: watching tv

FUCK YEAH!!
i FINALLY got my laptop up and running and connected to the internet again, so i don't have to take it in to get fixed and i don't have to lose any of my files :) plus i'll be updating this thing more.....

i had a pretty good day at work, nothing horrible happened and i had some fun convo's with people, but i was really tired and my feet hurt soooooo bad i couldn't stand in one place for more than a minute....i worked 10am-10:30pm on friday and today i was in again at 11am.....it sucked....but at 8:30 my boss anna told me i could go home :-D so i came home and took a really hot bath....mmmm....

tonight we have jager, mwahahaha.....i'm gonna get fuckin trashed :-D

Current Mood: rejuvenated
Current Music: slaves on dope (on WGMP)

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